Many months back I wrote a post about fear and that i’m not afraid of a lot of things, at least the things I don’t have the control over. So that brings me back here:
I’m not scared of dying; of what is to come in the afterlife, of what I’m leaving behind, or everything I haven’t yet accomplished. I’m somewhat a little wary of if my loved ones have to see or be a part of it. But other than that. For me, whats to be scared of?
If I happen to die tomorrow or even 40 years from now, that’s okay, it’s a part of the journey and quite the end of it. I trust my life, my beliefs, my process. If I die tomorrow, honestly I’d die happy. At the end of my life whenever it happens to come. I won’t think about the things I haven’t done, the things on my bucket list because why? Why end your life thinking about the things you haven’t accomplished, and comparing yourself to others standards, thinking of things you just can’t change at that point.
I know it sounds ludicrous but every so often when I think about death; I find it kind of beautiful. The thought of the soul leaving the body, leaving the human experience, leaving the tangibles ( home, cars, money. Objects that don’t matter) and then forth going to a beautiful place/plain, when you see your loved ones all around you, seeing the ones who have left before you, and the ones you left here.
Of course I get sad if someone I love passes away, I’m definitely still going to mourn the ones I lose in the future; but I know as well, they’re better and happier. (I still very much miss the ones I’ve lost along the way, so much, but that’s just that, death is sad for the ones still living, for the mourning, its not sad for the deceased.) People grow old, the world gets too cruel, why would you want to live forever? Why would you want your loved one to live forever? So you can have them and not be sad? Life and Death coincide together, whether we like it or not.
Trust me, I know its hard thinking of the one you’ve lost, they’re not right here experiencing things with you anymore, you can’t pick up your phone to call them, you can’t embrace them when you just need a good hug. I can’t help you not to mourn and not be sad about them. What I can say is their energy is around you. It’s like when you think of them and the way they would react to a situation or event, they are right there in you, they’ve left their lasting love within you that you already know how they’d act. Even though they aren’t physically here with us anymore, they can see and listen to you. Talk to them, they really are around, allow yourself to talk.
Don’t fear something you know is coming whether you like it or not, it’s something you can’t change. You can’t cheat it. Sending you love and strength ❤️
Sincerely yours, Jolee G.